Jehovah was not in the wind. And after the wind, an earthquake: Jehovah was not in the earthquake.
And after the earthquake, a fire: Jehovah was not in the fire. And after the fire, a soft gentle voice. (1Kings 19:11-12)

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Wednesday, January 9, 2013

When You are too Afraid to Dream

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He calls for me many times a day. Just to see where I am. To be reassured that I am still close by. 

"Mom . . . ?"

I usually respond, but he doesn't always hear me. So he calls again. To be sure.

He won't go to the basement on his own either.

If I am out without him and I don't get home right on the minute that I said I'd be back he starts to worry.

Somewhere Fear has crept in. 

But, I can't say that I don't know what it is like. In fact, he's probably inherited it from his mother.

In the middle of the night, when he's been dreaming, we usually find him in our bed, snuggling up between us. 

Yep, I know exactly what that is like.

Dreams. For Fear that riddles me, I usually won't even talk about my dreams.

Or even admit that I have any, worthwhile ones anyway.


Fear is nothing new, but it sure can rob.

Over and over in God's Word we can read the words 'Do not fear.' And so often they are coupled with the words. 'For I am with you.'

There are times that I think there should be something more . . . more fulfilling, more dramatic, more productive, more something than what I am doing right now. 

But to figure that out I need to continue in exactly what I am doing now.

And I need to continue in prayer. Seeking the one who came that I might have life and have it abundantly.

I'm encouraged when I read the words Daniel heard when he had a dream:


Then he said,  "Don't be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day you began to pray for understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your request has been heard in heaven. I have come in answer to your prayer."

Perhaps what God has for me is to experience more fully what He has already abundantly blessed me with. 

And I could be missing out on that because I am too busy worrying that I am all alone.

Maybe the only way to find out, is to call on the One who says 'Come'. 



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I've been pondering what Holley Gerth has been sharing on her blog, letting the thoughts flit about in my head. So I thought I would sit down and be brave and see what would come.
And, I don't know, I wonder if there is really any point to wrestling these words out, but I am compelled to press on. Maybe it has something to do with a dream that I haven't even realized yet or too fearful to even consider.

Linking here with Holley
and here with Michele-Lyn


12 comments:

  1. Hi Rebekah
    I relate to that fear too. Someone once told me 'He will give you a lion's roar." I smiled when I saw the picture at the top of your post. I don't much feel like roaring but maybe it starts with a whisper...
    x

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    1. Lynette, whispering with you as we face our fears.
      Thanks for stopping by.

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  2. Stay strong Rebekah! You are His, and loved, and everything our hearts desire are worthwhile to Him... although those are the same thoughs I wrestle with myself ("or even admit that I have any, worthwhile ones anyway").

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    1. Thank you for the encouragement. Resting in His arms of love.

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  3. Sometimes continuing on day after day is harder than dreaming. This is my goal for the year also-just continue.

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    1. Anna, Yes, that is so true. I was living that even as you commented. Thank you for pointing that out. It was a 'lightbulb' moment for me. More to mull over:)

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  4. Fear seams to be a touch point of this here GSDT! I super know you have one ... we all do ... it one of the many ways HE created us compelled ...May our FATHER continue to bless and keep you on this GSD journey!

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  5. Love that you're listening and exploring. Praying with you! :)

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    1. Thank you, Holley! For your encouragement and for stopping by and praying!

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  6. Rebekah,

    I am linking in from A Life Surrendered. Totally understand what you are saying. I wrote about that this morning on Five minute Friday. Fear will never go away but we can choose not to let us hold us back - as we push through that fear with God on our side.
    Praying that you can do this.
    Blessings,
    Janis

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    1. PS I just love the picture of the sky in your header... beautiful.
      Blessings,
      janis

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  7. What an encouraging post! I am so glad you shared it at my place :) Blessings on all you endeavor for His glory, moving forward, despite the fear that tries to hold you back. Blessings...

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